I get that way, and the weather here in Portland hasn't helped ( heavy rains and all). In my case, these people were significant parts of my life, so I will always miss them; in the cases of ones that have died recently I still grieve. I don't expect to be rid of the sadness or the pain anytime soon.However, I have been integrating the losses within my life, and the hurt's not as bad, in addition to giving me a bit more empathy for others than I may have had. Then again I'm a mushy Cancer, so that might have something to do with how I deal.

It will most likely be sad for awhile. my husband died from cancer a year and a half ago, and it is still raw. But this years celebration WAS better than the first one. Give yourself whatever time you need to feel what you need to feel. The sad doesn't nesisarily go away, it just gets balanced with grateful memories to accompany the pain. You will know when it is right to have a day of the dead party at your home, when you can be in joy with it. Allways remember to talk to someone when your feelings become too much. Isolation is very unhelpful, i know. travis